This week I had the privilege of being a part of something absolutely miraculous and gorgeous. Messy, painful, broken, agonizing, and so, so beautiful.
Along the way, I discovered that you can actually grieve and giggle at the same time.
An agnostic Muslim friend I’ve not seen in 26 years shared her heartbreak with me. A brutal, shattered story. One of long-term destructive circumstances. One of emotional, mental, physical, and spiritual abuse. One of trying, and trying, and trying, and trying, and never being able to make it be better, never being able to find peace, safety, and sanity in her home and family. One of exhaustion, and depression, and desperation. We wept together as she shared how she sees strength in me and wants to be strong, too, and how she sees that I have God and she needs God in her life, too.
And I got to tell her I’m just a messy, broken person who knows and loves Jesus. He is the only reason I’m doing OK and even have JOY even though a lot about my circumstances stinks and my heart is still broken.
I got to share with her the words of one of my pastors,
I got to pray for her, buy her a Bible and a copy of Streams in the Desert (an excellent devotional for seasons of trial), and invite her to church with me this weekend. Seriously, I feel like watching this redemptive, beautiful rescue unfold will go down in God’s Big Book of His Relentless Love as one of the most eternity-impacting moments of my life. See? Weeping and giggling at the same time!
God is so astounding! I saw Him reach down and grab this beautiful, crushed woman He’s clearly been wooing (with heartbreak, as He so often does) for decades and draw her to Himself because He loves her so much. He wove all the mess together, crafting it all into just the right circumstances, at just the right moment, and just the right place because He loves her!
Just as He has been with you in your story and with me in my story and chasing you and me all this time!
How GREAT is our God?!
How incredible that He let me be a witness to her rescue! To the beginning of her learning who Jesus is and her soon-to-be salvation because she is craving Him!
We are all born craving Him. We just don’t know it.
Instead, we fill that God-void — with relationships, with ugly glorification of ourselves or of others, with position, or power, or money, or success, or food, or activities, or addictions, or some kind of identity for ourselves, sex, pleasure, shopping, TV. If it exists, we can make an idol of it. But, idols and substitutes will never, ever satisfy!
Nothing but Jesus Christ Himself, living in daily relationship with Him, relying on Him, being led and loved by Him, surrendering to His direction, and enjoying Him will ever satisfy that craving.
He has also set eternity in the hearts of men. — Ecclesiastes 3:11
“Something deep down inside us is made to live for a story bigger than ourselves — the story of the One who made us. Any other version of this story will consistently feel shallow and empty.” — Jennie Allen
This is what it’s all about! We were created for the purpose of giving Him glory! It’s not about me. It’s about God! My story is to be set inside His Great Story!
It’s so easy for it to turn into a story about ME, though, because we’re all basically Me-Monsters, aren’t we? Our study this week touched on this issue that we have to consistently fight — Arrogance (or the fear of appearing arrogant) — in order to be used for God’s purposes. Jennie and I also touched on arrogance and fear of appearing arrogant in our live-chat because it’s a handicap for all of us.
Which resonates with you? I think I struggle with both. I’m stained with sinful arrogance and also so stomach-turningly repulsed by pride that makes me fear appearing prideful. It’s both.
Our hearts must be completely His (2 Chronicles 16:9) before we can start to dream. — Jennie Allen
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